Monday, July 20, 2009

Missed One

So, I had posted at least once every month since December 2007. Last month was the first month with no post. Sad day. I guess its because I've become ridiculously busy. "Life" is actually pretty crazy and I'm enjoying it a lot more than I thought I would.

So currently, my life includes my two jobs (DAC and Albertsons), school, Angela, church and family stuff. All pretty normal and important and I love how they all fill my life with variety and excitement.

CASHIER Last week I was given my One Year pin at Albertsons. My manager just handed it to me and carried on with her work. I just felt like this was a little bit less than celebratory, so I told my next customer about it and we did a little dance together. It was pretty awesome. I only work one or two nights a week. I like Albertsons.

SALES DAC / Charter is the most prominent aspect of my life right now. I'm full time and most weeks I'll do as much overtime as I can stand. Currently, myself and one other person keep switching between first and second place on the rankings on the floor. I've applied for a special management program class for which they will choose only 8 people from the whole company to have special, one on one management training. I have been accepted for an interview on Monday. I have also applied for an actual Management position within my department. My manager is doing all she can to prepare me for management including assigning me to be a supervisor all last week where I spent my days walking the sales floor assisting the new people and also doing the managers' various projects. I have discovered that I love sales and I love teaching people. I like my job.SCHOOL I took some time off and was planning on going back in the fall, but I got a bit anxious and took a summer class. It was very intense but I finished and passed and now I'm free to take what I want in the upcoming fall semester. I'm glad I did it. I am a smart guy, but I am not academic. Many people are the opposite. I will argue that academics do not secure for anyone success in this life. I have no respect for the college and university academic systems nor their politics and if I had the power, I would call for a complete reformation. I could go on, and on about why the system sucks and perhaps I will, but not in this post. I have taken many classes and I have failed many classes. It was not my time. I will get my degree in my time and I hope that if you are sure enough that your way is correct that you keep that to yourself because I don't want to hear it. I'm not angry at the people who's opinions have proven to be different than mine. I am happy and proud to be able and ready to do things my way. I am filling my plate with everything I can and just getting it done. I live in peace knowing that I provide for myself in the now and I am constantly providing for my life in the future. That's all that I need to have peace. And I have that.

LOVE It has been almost 21 months since that day at the Macaroni Grill when I asked Angela if she would be my girlfriend. Sometimes I'm shocked that she could stand me for this long. Since that day we have entwined our lives, learning about each other and about love in general. I don't think it was an accident that Angela came into my life when she did and I can honestly say that all the best things in my life right now are because of her. If you ever really get to know Angela, you learn quickly that her life is full of giving. Sometimes I have a hard time understanding why she gives so much and so often to those who just never give back. Often I'll classify myself in that category. I don't how to give the way she does. She is a great example to me.

If I were a bit more of a man, I would be able to fill this section with sappy words that would describe how I feel about Angela, but honestly I don't think sufficient words exist.

SPIRIT I'm not an active member of the church and haven't been for over two years. A couple months ago, something happened. I'm not sure what it was exactly, but really it was a combination of things. Perhaps I just needed to establish my independence in order to appreciate the influence of the church in my life. Maybe it was just 24 years of spiritual education from my church leaders and parents finally kicking in in my adulthood. It's very possible that all of this was set off by Angela's outstanding, constant example. Whatever the reason is, I have decided to give it another shot. Not a major change or an absolute commitment, but a subtle shift in perspective. We'll see.

LIFE The way I look at it, I'm progressing pretty darn well in all aspects of my life and I have peace of mind. There are a lot of good things in my life and there are also a lot of crappy things, but I know I'm doing the best with what I have and so the crappy things don't get to me. Life is good. Thank you all for reading and thanks to all those of you who have and still play a big part of my life.