Monday, March 22, 2010

Just Me

This is my first time blogging from my phone. Its slow going so hopefully I don't make a habit of it.

Today is a red day. Last night the health care bill passed and while I have much to say on the subject, I will suffice it to say that I got the news via text by Angela, who, no doubt, figured that I would want to talk about it. Usually I would and I am mostly outspoken about things that I disapprove of, but there was something in it that made me feel betrayed and altogether violated by those who I am supposed to trust. I was so upset that I told Angela that I didn't want to talk about it and I went to bed early. So early, in fact, that I woke up today two hours before my alarm.

Work was regular today, but splashed with he occasional comment about the bill and after work, once my mind wasn't occupied, I couldn't sit still. I couldn't think a moment's thought without it being some horrible thought about the government. I knew I had to do something, so I put on my running shorts and ran to my old house where my old roommate was gardening. After making small talk with him, I carried on running to Angela's house. She wasn't home, so I turned around and ran back home. I haven't done the math yet, but it was probably only a couple miles each way. Although I didn't experience any great Aha moment, I felt a thousand times better. I felt peace. Maybe that is "Aha Moment" material. It was a reminder that even though our great country is being lead in a treacherous course, there is still peace to be had.

I am cursed with the big picture. I am cursed with an overpowering desire to care about how this country is ran. I can't convince myself to ignore it or fool myself into thinking that it doesn't matter. Therefore it is typically difficult for me to find peace.

No matter what kind of corruption is happening in the world, I know that I am still free to live my own principles and to enjoy life for all the little things that it will always offer: like fresh air, old friends, and people to love.

I do hope that our dear, wayward country finds the truth soon, but in the meantime, I will continue my struggle for life and peace.